Manic Monday

I wanted to share some pics

I lost more then 5 lbs of fat this past week :) This is what 5 lbs of fat look like. My doctor has a model of it. eeeew! gross eh! And I have another 18 of these to lose.

So I am feeling very much on program. Counting everything. :) Using Grant's points calculator, (he got this for free when he joined and bought the coupons this time), the website calculator and the list. I am also using the points ticker thingy. I bought this when I joined this time. I am also measuring everything. I hunted up my ancient Weight Watcher scale. From when I was a teen ager I think!

I also love love love my Weight Watcher serving spoons: I have one that is a cup and one that is a 1/2 cup. And this measuring spoon is amazing! After you fill it, it has not one but two slidey thingies that push every last bit of what was in the spoon out! :) These are things I bought years ago but so glad I still have them!

But I am afraid too. While I feel really committed to this all right now, I am so worried that the same thing that has happened before will happen again. I sabotage myself. I am trying really hard to reflect to figure out why I fall off the wagon. They say you will never lose it all and / or keep it off if you do not figure out why you had it on in the first place. Having all the WW gadgets through belonging to WW since I was 13 did not give me ultimate success. They are tools and are only as good as the person using them. I need to get it done this time. I am worth it!